Faith Anchor

Now faith is the assurance that what we hope for will come about and the certainty that what we cannot see exists. Hebrews 11:1 (ISV)

In 2016 we miscarried for the first time at 11 weeks. Up until that moment, it was my darkest day. The afternoon we found out, I drove around Taupo looking for a church. Three churches I went to, and all three were locked so I found myself sitting outside St Patricks school church where there was a grotto / cave. I prayed to God in desperation and asked for a sign that he was listening, and that everything was going to be ok. I sat there for ages looking for a bird, or a butterfly... I remember even hoping for a gust of wind, but nothing came and I felt completely alone.

That evening, completely out of the blue I received a message from my old pastor in Christchurch (who I hadn't seen in 5 months and didn't know I was pregnant) and he wrote, "...this afternoon I was praying and the Holy Spirit put you and Vernon on my heart so I prayed for you."

There are still no words to describe how that moment made me feel.

For the past 2 1/2 years, this moment has been my faith anchor. There have been many times when I have had to fight off doubt. Doubt in my beliefs, doubt that I would be healed, doubt that God even existed... But every time I did, this memory bought me back to truth. God hears.